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paynesgrey: See me (drwho-12seeme)
This weekend sucked a goat's ass.

Not only did Rapey McPerjury get confirmed to the Supreme Court because why not, fuck us, but I also had shit just go wrong this weekend.

But last night before bed I noticed that my clothes were wet in the closet. WHY? Because our roof is leaking. Because we knew that we had roof damage, had a roofing contractor that dicked us around for two months, and now after firing them and trying to find someone new, we get this downpour rainstorm that soaked right through the roof into my bedroom closet. So last night I got no to little sleep because I was removing stuff from my closet, putting down towels over the carpet, and catching water in a bucket. Then I had to call State Farm and then make a claim. I also looked up another roofer, so fingers crossed this place isn't filled with unprofessional shitbag brodude assholes like the last one.

Not sure how much this is going to cost, but now there is interior damage as well, especially to the drywall. I claimed the carpet too but heaven knows I'm not going to get a chance to replace that! I'll just suck up the water with my carpet shampooer and hope that helps. I'd love new carpet in the whole upstairs but not necessary at this time. The water damaged roof and drywall will have to be replaced though. So fun!  I had to make a new claim with State Farm, so who knows when we'll get our claim check, and who knows how I'm going to pay for the roof. Haha! Ugh.

Then to make things more fun, the toilet we tried fixing this weekend is still running. It works okay and flushes but won't stop running! Joe woke me up in the middle of the early morning to help him shut it off because he couldn't sleep with the noise. So we have to figure that out too. Might have to call a plumber for this one. UGHHHHH.  If we could swing it, I'd opt for a brand new toilet but since we have a roof to fix, probably need a quick fix for now. Or we just don't use the toilet upstairs, which SUCKS, since it's the master bedroom.

I know disasters come in threes so I'm waiting for the other shoe to drop.

It would be lovely if I got a bonus check or a salary increase as promised. Still heard nothing on that. We'll see. At least my boss is letting me work home if I have to this week to deal with the roofers.

To top it off, we're supposed to have Juliet's party this weekend and if we need to spend time on these issues, I won't have time to get my house in order for this party, AND it's supposed to rain heavily on Wednesday again so I'm really nervous about this leak now.  

I just wish it would stop raining. Please Goddess stop raining. At least for a week... Send the rain to California or Montana.

And we saw my mom Saturday and though it was good, she was for whatever reason, an ass to my husband, and he lost it and went off on her at lunch. It was awkward. But I don't really blame him. She hasn't said anything to me about his outburst, and I don't suspect she will since she doesn't confront people nor does she seem to get it when people have issues with her. It's usually always THEIR fault. I'm thinking about talking to her myself if they won't communicate with each other. But I've been so busy with the roof, toilet, child party and other stuff that I haven't had a chance knowing it WILL create drama and I just don't have the patience for that now.

I'm pretty sure the coils I bought for my vape are wrong again. I might just get a new mod because this one is just burning through coils and I might as well spend the money on a new one. Not sure what is going on with it and it's frustrating me because it helps me deal with all this stress, and now it's just becoming another stress.

Oh, and another top off, I got my monthly visitor! Thanks universe! *flips the bird*

We had some high points of the weekend despite all this mess. We did get some more coverage for our house that went into effect Saturday, so I'm kind of hoping the lower deductible and some of these new coverages will help us with our leaky roof. Fingers crossed! 

I got to see my BFF and sister Beth this weekend too. Joe and I got some good errands done around the house and finally donated everything left over from the garage sale to charity. So that stuff is out of the garage! I got my beta work done for another story and had a little time to finish some reading. I did a little editing to my own story for the anthology too. I'm not sure when I'll have time to work on it again but I'll try.

Unfortunately I may have to drop out of the Reylo Charity Anthology. I've had NO time to draw or work on it, and the deadline is coming up. So I'm going to mull it over and see how the week goes, but I might end up sending them an email that I am out and try for next year. I'll finish my comic when I have time and then put it up on deviantart. :/ I might be able to contribute writing but right now I have no ideas because my brain is so on edge. Ugh. Maybe I'll come up with something. *shrug*

BUT at least there was new Doctor Who! OMG! My thoughts:
Spoilers! New season of Doctor Who )

So yeah, that's the gist of my misery. I haven't had any time to write or work on freelancing either. I suck. :(

Take care everyone! Here's hoping your week is better than mine. I have a feeling that this is only the beginning to my woes this week. *crawls back under a rock*

paynesgrey: Looking out at the world below (marilyn)
Recommendations for [community profile] hc_bingo , March Amnesty Challenge 2018 

forgiveness cursed loss of job / income

Forgiveness


1. Title: How Does One Come Home (4474 words) by firelord65
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Star Wars - All Media Types, Star Wars Sequel Trilogy, Star Wars Episode VIII: The Last Jedi (2017), Star Wars Episode VII: The Force Awakens (2015)
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Rey/Ben Solo | Kylo Ren
Characters: Rey, Ben Solo | Kylo Ren
Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Post-Canon, Kylo Ren Redemption, Dark Side Rey, Force Bond (Star Wars), Hurt/Comfort, Angst with a Happy Ending, Implied Character Death
Summary:Actions and consequences. Guilt and culpability. The galaxy bends to these forces just as easily as it does to determination and hope. Rey and Kylo Ren must confront their own demons. They cannot defeat the other’s for them.

Why I'm Reccing it and How it Pertains to the prompt: This fic starts with a lot of internal struggle on Kylo Ren’s part and I like that as the story progresses Rey’s influence on Kylo Ren not only gives fuel to his redemption, but she is a catalyst for Kylo Ren forgiving himself and no longer be the monster that he is. In the end, Kylo helps Rey forgive herself too, as she is carrying similar burdens.

2. Title: Almost Doesn't Count (1875 words) by marcasite
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Doctor Who (2005)
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Twelfth Doctor/Clara Oswin Oswald
Characters: Twelfth Doctor, Clara Oswin Oswald, Danny Pink
Additional Tags: Angst, Post-Kill The Moon, Not A Fix-It, Kissing
Summary:The silence swells between them and Clara feels the echo of loss. The loss of everything that was easy and comfortable between them, it has all turned to ashes and lay scattered at their feet. She is helpless and lost, determined and strong at the same moment.

Why I’m Reccing this: At this particular point in the series, Clara and Doctor part ways, but Clara never really wanted to. There is misunderstanding between them, and when he returns their tension starts to unravel, and I like how it seems that he’s back for her but not needing her, but he does it in a very Doctor way. I see this as Clara forgiving him after “Kill the Moon” and seeing that she never really meant to push him away in the first place.

3. Title: With Grace In Your Heart (3147 words) by Lapin
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Heroes - Fandom
Rating: General Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Edgar/Lydia (Heroes), Amanda & Lydia, Edgar & Amanda
Characters: Amanda Strazzula, Mrs. Comey, Edgar (Heroes), Lydia (Heroes), Carnies - Character
Additional Tags: Grief/Mourning, Acceptance, Moving On, Mother-Daughter Relationship
Summary:  Amanda just wants to know who her mom was, and Edgar holds all the answers. If only he would give them to her. But she's not the only one in mourning, and she's not the only one who loved Lydia.

Why I’m Reccing this: This is a great introspection piece with little known characters. I liked Amanda’s point of view here. She just wants to know her mother and the only person she can learn more about her is from someone who is ignoring her and ready to leave her - her late mother’s lover Edgar. She lashes out at him, and he starts to understand her, and she forgives him his silence as he confesses he loves her because she’s apart of her mom, and he would never leave her.

4. Title: Beginning of the End of a Beginning (1402 words) by PhoenixDragon
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Doctor Who (2005)
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Amy Pond - Relationship, mention of OCs - Relationship
Characters: Amy Pond, Rory Williams, Mentions of OCs
Additional Tags: Angst, Dark, Horror, Speculation, Introspection, Character Study, spoilers for 7.05, Surprise!Twist
Summary: Amy buried her husband of sixty plus years on a cold, blustery day that smelled of burning tires, hot oil and exhaust.

Why I’m reccing this: This is a great story on Amy and Rory back in the past, and being very forgiving of the situation - living in a time and world before they were born and acclimating to it. Amy doesn’t quite acclimate the way you think, and she forgives her situation like a companion would - by fighting it in her own way.

5. Title: The Worst Plan
Author: Vigs
Fandom: Doctor Who
Rating: Teen
Characters: Martha, Ten
Summary: Takes place immediately after Family of Blood. Martha explains to the Doctor just how bad his plan was.
Why I’m reccing this: This fic could not fit this prompt more perfectly. The Doctor apologizes to Martha for getting her trapped in the past as a black woman and then as his behavior as John Smith. His apology isn’t taken so easily but it ends happily for them.


6. Title: What it Means to Care
Author: Left Handed Lemon
Fandom: Doctor Who
Characters: Twelfth Doctor, River Song, 
Pairings: 11/River, 12/Doctor
Rating: Teen
Summary:  "All I want is to know if you still care or if you don't. The truth. Regardless of what it might be. Because this uncertainty is far worse than anything you could throw my way."

Why I’m reccing this: The Doctor (Twelve) has an unusual way of showing affection to River, and she thinks he’s rejected her. Instead he shows her how he feels, and I think in a way, she shows acceptance (and forgiveness) in his behavior.



Cursed

7. Title: Tequila Sunrise (1818 words) by chantefable
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Harry Potter - J. K. Rowling
Rating: Mature
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Draco Malfoy/Rose Weasley
Characters: Draco Malfoy, Rose Weasley
Additional Tags: Romance, Character Study, Age Difference
Summary: Draco Malfoy's séjour on the island of Tenerife takes an unexpected turn with the arrival of a young English witch.

Why I Recced This: I recommended this based on Draco's thoughts of his desire for Rose, that his infatuation is a curse, and he wants so much for Rose to reciprocate and he hardly believes it for a moment when she does. More than anything I felt this fit the prompt because of Draco's internal struggle of wanting her.

8. Title:The Only One (5954 words) by Harlow R
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Avatar: The Last Airbender
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
Characters: Azula (Avatar), Zuko (Avatar), Ursa (Avatar), Ozai (Avatar)
Summary: Azula has always been defined by her brother.

Why I recced this:
The way Azula's parents see Azula versus what she's expected to be, as well as her view of herself as the unreliable narrator makes it seem like Azula is cursed. It's all about perspectives here.

9. Title: Certain Dark Things (3176 words) by sinemoras09
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: The Avengers (2012)
Rating: Explicit
Warnings: Major Character Death
Relationships: Loki/Natasha Romanov, Clint Barton/Natasha Romanov
Characters: Loki (Marvel), Natasha Romanov
Additional Tags: Unrequited Love, Angst, Anonymous Sex, Loneliness, Hurt/Comfort
Summary: I love you as certain dark things are to be loved.

Why I recced This: A really harsh look into Loki's perspective on the Black Widow, how she is, and what they are like to each other as they come together and become more intimate. In the beginning it seems like Loki is the only one talking, making observations about the Black Widow in his own perception, and in her silence and demeanor it gives space to how Loki is himself, just as cursed as she is.

10. Title: Loneliness of the Warrior (2551 words) by eirenical
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Sailor Moon - All Media Types, Code Name: Sailor V
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Aino Minako | Sailor Venus/Hino Rei | Sailor Mars
Characters: Aino Minako | Sailor Venus, Hino Rei | Sailor Mars, Kino Makoto | Sailor Jupiter, Mizuno Ami | Sailor Mercury, Tsukino Usagi | Sailor Moon
Additional Tags: Female Relationships, Angst, Memories, Loneliness
Summary: "I have been the lone warrior at this gate since I was but a child. Aino Minako... Sailor V... You don’t corner the market on feeling alone."
Why I recced This: This is a great introspection piece on Minako Aino and how she sees herself compared to the other Sailor Guardians. She's a more seasoned warrior and when a battle goes awry she feels alienated and alone, almost cursed that she does feel so alone from them. Thankfully Rei is there to support her.

11. Title: Sjalfradr Means Freedom
Author: theladysifofasgard
Fandom: Thor
Characters: Lady Sif
Rating: K
Summary:  Sif was not only burdened with the jealously that seemed to poison her mind, but on top of this, she was constantly being pitied by her surrounding Asgardians. They pitied her.. How dare they! She is offered a chance for a fresh start, freedom, by the All-Father himself, and she takes it. One-sided Sif/Thor. Tumblr prompt.

Why I recced this: This is a great piece on Lady Sif's thoughts as Thor comes home with the imprisoned Loki, how things have changed since they had all grown up together, and how her jealousy towards Thor's attachment with Jane is her curse, and how even her friends see that she is heart broken by Thor's choice, a feeling she must live with and make well with it on her own.

12. Title: Physician, Heal Thyself
Author: Serendipity1
Avatar: The Last Airbender
Characters: Aang, Katara
Pairing: Aang/Katara
Rating: T
Summary:  Katara overextends a metaphor and under-appreciates her own needs. Still, life goes on. Katara/Aang.
Why I recced this: This is another good introspection piece on Katara. I see her curse here being in the way her empathy and willingness to help is a curse in itself. She is a healer of others, but does not always take care of her own needs and heal herself.

13. Title: I’m Going to Stop Pretending
Author: sinverguenza
Fandom: Heroes
Characters: Peter Petrelli, Claire Bennet
Pairing: Peter/Claire
Rating: Mature
Warnings: Incest, underage
Summary:  Peter Petrelli struggles against his less than familial feelings toward his niece.
Why I recced This: This is one of my all-time favorite stories for Peter and Claire in canon. This really explores how these two characters feel about each other and the growing sexual nature and taboo of their relationship. Their curse is that they are related, as they discover, and how to deal with it and their interactions within the family as well as their identities as people with special abilities. It's even more trying for Peter who has feelings for his niece that is underage.

Loss of Job / Income

14. Title: Critical Media Studies (1201 words) by zarabithia
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: The Runaways (2010) RPF, Actor RPF
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Dakota Fanning/Kristen Stewart
Characters: Dakota Fanning, Kristen Stewart, Elle Fanning
Additional Tags: Fluff, Sibling Bonding
Summary: Elle is the first person to call Dakota and ask if she is really going to quit acting.

Why I recced This: Simply put, Dakota’s sister Elle is worried about her in the media and thinks Dakota is quitting acting and joining a band after doing The Runaways. Dakota sets her sister straight.


15. Title: A Hope of Doubt
Author: luxken27
Fandom: Daria
Characters: Trent, Daria, Jane, Jesse
Pairing: Trent/Daria
Rating: K
Summary:  Post-canon. On the eve of the biggest performance of his life, Trent shares a special moment with Daria. Written for the Cotton Candy Bingo prompt key to heart.

Why I recced this: Not so much a single job loss, but a struggle here as Trent reflects on how his band went through some really low points of lack of productivity and how their music evolved over the years. They had been dropped by their label at one point and Trent had to pick himself back up and change the tone of his music. He also credits Daria for her inspiration to his motivation and his music.

Fic Recs

Jul. 26th, 2017 08:51 am
paynesgrey: Marilyn (oswin)
Misc. Multi-Fandom Fiction Recs: (Harry Potter, Veronica Mars, Bleach, Avatar, Ouran, Moonlight, Iron Man, Haven, Merlin, Supernatural, Glee, Star Trek, V, Doctor Who, Fringe, Sherlock Holmes, Flashforward, Dollhouse, Being Human, Misc., Crossovers)

This entry will constantly be updated!

My FIC RECS - sans Inuyasha and Heroes )

#RESIST

Feb. 2nd, 2017 10:40 am
paynesgrey: Marilyn (womensmarch)


Seems appropriate
paynesgrey: my little Clara (drwho-missyclara)
Well, fandom-stocking reveals are in, and I feel like such a lucky duck at all the goodies I received. I must thank everyone who filled my stocking this year. I am thoroughly happy with the thought that went into the banners, icons and fics for me! People in fandom are pretty amazing and I'm grateful to be apart of it.

I received several little fics that I feel I need to share. I hope you get a chance to read them and enjoy them as I did.

Doctor Who, Missy/Clara drabble by sharpest_asp. I love this little ficlet with a passion! Missy/Clara are my guilty pleasure.

Doctor Who, Love and Kisses by [livejournal.com profile] kiramaru7. River/Doctor is my OTP. Thank you!

Doctor Who, Passing Fancies - a River/Eight ficlet by muccamukk, OMG MY PAIRING. Loved this look at Eight and River crossing paths. Also, EIGHT!!!!!

Doctor Who, No, Miss Oswald, I Expect You to Die by JohnAmendAll, more delicious Clara/Missy. YOU SPOIL ME!

Doctor Who/Star Wars, Taking Relationship Advice from a Master by annariel, This was a HUGE surprise to me, mainly because I did not ask for Star Wars, and someone even went out of their way to notice that I ship Rey/Kylo Ren, and wrote a Missy instructing Kylo Ren about his attraction to Rey, which is GLORIOUS and CLEVER. And I just love this to bits. AHHHHHH! Perfection.

Agent Carter, A Married Man by [livejournal.com profile] yetanothermask, Peggy/Jarvis goodness that I rarely see because he's married, but this is PERFECT, and I just love their chemistry on the show so them pining for each other just makes a lot of sense to me.

Thank you everyone!

-- Also, I did some of my own from Doctor Who, Twilight, Jessica Jones, Inuyasha, and Marvel fandoms.
I updated them at [livejournal.com profile] paynesgrey_fics if you want to take a look.

All of this really cheered me up. I had sort of a bad day yesterday at work, so this really made up for it reading these stockings.
Wheee!
paynesgrey: Squee (drwho-squee)
This was an awesome convention!

I had never gone to Chicago Tardis but I can say I was pleased. It wasn't too busy, and I'm glad I went on Sunday because I heard Friday was a huge clusterfuck. Anyway, the lines weren't too bad, there wasn't that many people, and I got exactly what I wanted ... to meet Paul and Alex, get their autographs and get a picture with them.

I have been having Eight/River bunnies dancing in my head since I got back from the convention.

Pictures )

Alex was hinting a bit on the Christmas special without giving away too many spoilers. But she did say that River was really REALLY naughty in the special, and she stressed it alot, so it made me even more excited for the Christmas special. I have video of her talking about working with Peter, but the sound quality sucks. Anyway, Alex was a treat! Though I will say Paul McGann was the best. He was personable, chatty, and just very lovely all around when interacting with him. Even Joe liked listening to his panel, so that's a plus.

Jenna Coleman was supposed to be here, but she canceled and they replaced her with Ingrid Oliver. I barely made it into one of the Ingrid panels but she was pretty cool too. You can tell Ingrid really loves the fans.

Sam Anderson was also there. I'm not really a Danny Pink fan, but now I'm a Sam Anderson fan. He was totally interactive with the fans and a huge goofball. You can tell he really loves Who people and he was very nice and engaging with everyone. He was signing autographs behind Paul so while I was in line I watched him interact with people and he is just a hoot. The Chicago Tardis staff was saying what a "problem child" he was, and one incident in particular he went out without his "handler" and was walking among the masses of fans, up and down and totally trolling the autograph lines so much the Chicago Tardis staff had to kick him out of the hallway. I even saw him dress up as a Cyberman and take photos with some of the fans. He's pretty awesome, so if he comes back next year, I'll definitely want to get his autograph. Maybe I'll rewatch Danny Pink episodes to increase my love for him.

Joe and I made it into the tail end of the writers panel too, which I wish I would have joined earlier but they were stressing the importance of writing fanfiction, which made me happy.

All and all, a good day. I'm also broke right now, and I spent some of my Christmas bonus without getting it yet. LOL. But totally worth it.

Oh and also, after all these years, Paul McGann still hates his movie wig.

Artgasm

Apr. 19th, 2012 10:21 pm
paynesgrey: Marilyn (drwho)
After sifting through hundreds of deviantart notices daily, there comes a time when something really strikes me and grabs my attention. This is one of those art pieces.

I may have to print this and put this up on my inspiration board in my studio just because I like it so much.


Rose
by ~siana-juu on deviantART
paynesgrey: Marilyn (amyeleven)
Fandom: Doctor Who
Title: The Girl Who Waited
Artist: paynesgrey
Characters: Amy Pond, 11th Doctor
Rating: G
Prompt: "When once you have tasted flight, you will forever walk the earth with your eyes turned skyward, for there you have been, and there you will always long to return." ~Leonardo Da Vinci
Summary: N/A
Artist’s Notes (optional): Media: Photoshop, Micron ink pens, Photoshop paper filters. Done for the first fest for [livejournal.com profile] eleven_pond for Team Amy.


DW - The Girl Who Waited
by ~quirkyslayer on deviantART

fanart under the cut )
paynesgrey: Marilyn (drwho-river3)
My feelings on the Doctor Who finale...AMAZEBALLS.

I could not love River Song more than I do now. I LOVE HER SO MUCH. And AMY! SO MUCH LOVE FOR ALL OF THEM. Series 6 is definitely my favorite series now.

I also ignore all the River-hate and Moffat-hate on the internet. Sorry Who fandom, I don't care. Hahahaha.

Photobucket


Also Merlin is back. OMG. Lady Morgana is AWESOME, and I still love her like crazy, even though she's Team Evil. But I think my favorite part about the premiere was Lancelot. OMG. GUH. Santiago, I can't get enough of you.

Photobucket

YUMMY!
paynesgrey: Marilyn (drwho-9rose)
For [livejournal.com profile] apckrfan who won my [livejournal.com profile] helpthesouth digital art auction.

Fandom: Doctor Who
Title: DW - Rose and Nine
Artist: paynesgrey
Rating: G
Media: Adobe Illustrator CS5

URLS: Deviantart | PaperDemon

Preview:

Rose and Nine Fanart )
paynesgrey: Marilyn (drwho-amy11-thumbs)
Well, I did it!


Please join the [livejournal.com profile] who_contest community!


Now I have to figure out where to pimp it. I think I'll be PMing some places for a bit.

Join if interested! I'm running this just like [livejournal.com profile] heroes_contest. :3

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