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I've been pretty down lately, but I'm also trying to keep myself busy.
The job searching continues. I haven't had much luck with it. Mostly I deal with recruiters who never get back to me, or I get rejection emails from places I've applied. I just have to keep applying, and I am. I'm devoting a lot of my free time to just job searching. I'm also signed up for a couple of courses to enrich my skills. I just need the time to work on everything.
Being a stay at home mom does not help. Juliet is joined at my hip, needs a lot of attention, and when she's home I'm unable to get anything I want to do done. I though I could save money by taking her out of daycare, but truth be told, I had to put her back in, at least a couple days a week. I told Joe I'd find the money somewhere, even I have to sell crap on Facebook or Poshmark or do odd jobs somewhere. The days she is at daycare is so worth it for my mental health, and now I'm also trying to have her daycare days coincide when Joe has to go into the office, so then I have a day home by myself to work on my things uninterrupted.
The other hurdle is sleeping. I haven't been sleeping well and it's affecting my mental health as well. I sleep during times when I could be doing something productive and I toss and turn at night or stay up reading manga and feeling sluggish the next day. So I need to get my sleep back on track, and I need to get my workouts back on track too. I've been really avoiding exercising lately. Thankfully, I haven't gained any weight. But still, I know if I was working out more my weight would go down so I'm upset by that. Honestly, I really wish I could start taking power walks or running again like I used to. It really helped me with my anxiety and depression and helped me feel like I was "running away" from it all, just a little bit. With Juliet, who screams and freaks out if I leave even for an hour, it puts tremendous pressure on me and I rather just not deal with it. Still, I might have to do it...
Otherwise, mostly I clean, cook, take care of the kid and dog and husband, try to pay bills, job search, do some writing, reading and try to get some sleep. We had to unclog pipe in the basement where our A/C runs off. That was a nice bill from the plumber. It was leaking on our carpet. So that sucks. We really don't have money for this kind of stuff.
Recently I had to write something for![[community profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/community.png)
unconventionalcourtship and it ended up being like 15K words of Modern-AU Reylo. I am happy how it turned out, but it also drained me because I was hauling ass trying to make the deadline. Next I have to work on wipbigbang, which is due in a couple weeks. After that I'm going to work on some short stuff, or look into contests or any other freelancing stuff. I have freelancing requests in the queue so I'm definitely tackling those next.
Tomorrow Joe goes into work and Juliet has daycare, so I have a day to myself, which means job searching, follow ups, and possibly continuing my online courses. So the rest of today I plan on taking it easy, hoping to get a decent amount of sleep so tomorrow I'm refreshed enough to work on some things.
Otherwise, I'm reading a lot of manga, mostly online. I really enjoy Tsubaki-chou Lonely Planet (May/December relationship between a writer and a poor HS student) and I was all ready to buy the English version and there isn't one, so all they have is scanlations. I've gone back and read it a couple times. Other manga I've enjoyed is Black Bird, L-DK, Blue Sky Complex, and Dame na Watashi ni Koishite Kudasi.
I hope everyone is doing well and trudging through this year okay. I just really wish something good would happen. I really would feel a lot better if I got a new job and was able to feel more secure about the future.
Take care.
The job searching continues. I haven't had much luck with it. Mostly I deal with recruiters who never get back to me, or I get rejection emails from places I've applied. I just have to keep applying, and I am. I'm devoting a lot of my free time to just job searching. I'm also signed up for a couple of courses to enrich my skills. I just need the time to work on everything.
Being a stay at home mom does not help. Juliet is joined at my hip, needs a lot of attention, and when she's home I'm unable to get anything I want to do done. I though I could save money by taking her out of daycare, but truth be told, I had to put her back in, at least a couple days a week. I told Joe I'd find the money somewhere, even I have to sell crap on Facebook or Poshmark or do odd jobs somewhere. The days she is at daycare is so worth it for my mental health, and now I'm also trying to have her daycare days coincide when Joe has to go into the office, so then I have a day home by myself to work on my things uninterrupted.
The other hurdle is sleeping. I haven't been sleeping well and it's affecting my mental health as well. I sleep during times when I could be doing something productive and I toss and turn at night or stay up reading manga and feeling sluggish the next day. So I need to get my sleep back on track, and I need to get my workouts back on track too. I've been really avoiding exercising lately. Thankfully, I haven't gained any weight. But still, I know if I was working out more my weight would go down so I'm upset by that. Honestly, I really wish I could start taking power walks or running again like I used to. It really helped me with my anxiety and depression and helped me feel like I was "running away" from it all, just a little bit. With Juliet, who screams and freaks out if I leave even for an hour, it puts tremendous pressure on me and I rather just not deal with it. Still, I might have to do it...
Otherwise, mostly I clean, cook, take care of the kid and dog and husband, try to pay bills, job search, do some writing, reading and try to get some sleep. We had to unclog pipe in the basement where our A/C runs off. That was a nice bill from the plumber. It was leaking on our carpet. So that sucks. We really don't have money for this kind of stuff.
Recently I had to write something for
unconventionalcourtship and it ended up being like 15K words of Modern-AU Reylo. I am happy how it turned out, but it also drained me because I was hauling ass trying to make the deadline. Next I have to work on wipbigbang, which is due in a couple weeks. After that I'm going to work on some short stuff, or look into contests or any other freelancing stuff. I have freelancing requests in the queue so I'm definitely tackling those next.Tomorrow Joe goes into work and Juliet has daycare, so I have a day to myself, which means job searching, follow ups, and possibly continuing my online courses. So the rest of today I plan on taking it easy, hoping to get a decent amount of sleep so tomorrow I'm refreshed enough to work on some things.
Otherwise, I'm reading a lot of manga, mostly online. I really enjoy Tsubaki-chou Lonely Planet (May/December relationship between a writer and a poor HS student) and I was all ready to buy the English version and there isn't one, so all they have is scanlations. I've gone back and read it a couple times. Other manga I've enjoyed is Black Bird, L-DK, Blue Sky Complex, and Dame na Watashi ni Koishite Kudasi.
I hope everyone is doing well and trudging through this year okay. I just really wish something good would happen. I really would feel a lot better if I got a new job and was able to feel more secure about the future.
Take care.
