paynesgrey: Thor - Loki // by realproof (thor-loki)
Whelp. I'm still pretty annoyed with my mom, but as usual, she's moved on and nothing has changed. She even had the audacity to ask if she could come out for Labor Day and have Joe cook some pork on the grill. It's like, you want my husband to cook for you after you lashed out at him and then tried to make him out to be some sort of villain. Ugh.

Last weekend I went to Renfaire with her and two of her friends that I met for the first time. Her friends were not interesting, it was hot, and I did not have a good time. For whatever reason, I was annoyed that she didn't even invite Juliet to Renfaire or even think about including her. When I mentioned that next year I'd like to bring Juliet, she acted like it was a foreign concept, even though they have a lot of kids' activities there. I did some shopping for Juliet, and as usual, didn't buy anything really for me, and after I told her all I could think about was Juliet, she then proceeded to shop for her too, and kept asking me "would Juliet like this". It was super annoying.

She asked me later if something was wrong and if I was ashamed of her. I asked her to explain and she said "I'll tell you later" and then never did.

Ugh, I can't even deal with her antics anymore.

Other than that, things are going well. Work is super busy as usual, and now it looks like projects are fighting over me. There's been this whole back and forth between my bosses and the managers of the Caesar's project. My bosses want to put me on the Subway account, and the Caesars PMs don't want to lose me and are scrambling to find the budget to keep me. I thought I was on this project through the end of the year but it looks like they only slotted me for September 14th. In the meantime, as my role in this project is ending, they are fighting with each other about it. It's kind of embarrassing but also kind of awesome they consider me "in demand". It just gets awkward when I'm on a team call and the PMs take like five minutes to talk about how frustrating it is that I'm in demand and that they get calls constantly from my bosses trying to roll me off their project to start a new one.

I'm still blocked on writing, so I hope that changes soon. Also, I haven't had the time. Same for drawing time too. It's just been elusive. Instead, I've been reading a lot. I have gone past my reading goal on Goodreads already.

It also doesn't help that I've been having stomach problems and sleeping issues. After a long day at work, the last thing I want to do is look at a screen. I've tried writing a little on paper, but even then it's rough. I had two migraines last week, one which caused me to miss a work meeting. Thankfully I was able to make up for it though.

I am trying to do more with my fitness. I upped my step goal, and I joined a gym. I'm hoping I can make it to the gym tomorrow if my kid will let me. I think it'll be okay as my husband has said he'd take care of her so I can have some time to myself.

Juliet's daycare preschool is going okay, I guess. Joe and the daycare lady are not getting along, and it's kind of frustrating. So I'll have to take Juliet more and pick her up too since he just can't deal with her. I'm thinking it's a huge personality clash or something.

Bastet the cat has fit well into our household. She's coming out more and doesn't hide in the corner. She eats like a horse, steals food, and begs constantly to be fed. She's a sweetheart though. She and the dog are still adjusting to each other. It helps that Holly is a big wuss.

Other than that, things are going well and busy. We are trying to refinance our home, so fingers crossed on that. I'm hoping the concrete people can get out to our house this week and do the work. WE ARE SO READY. Tomorrow I'm going to finish cleaning the house. Today I just did bills and washed the dishes and then conked on for a nap. I picked up a book to start reading and had a light dinner as my stomach was acting up again. I think I need a cleanse or maybe some fasting. For now I'm trying to avoid ALL dairy and fried foods, hoping that helps.

I hope I can update and catch up with all of you more regularly. I still have TV reviews to add to my WordPress. I did update my new portfolio site though as my old URL expired, plus I didn't like it anyway. I need to make some freelance business cards as my current ones have my old email and old defunct site. Ugh.

In the meantime, here's a meme I've stolen from some friends...

AO3 Meme )

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paynesgrey: more delicious Reylo (reylo-3)
I've been pretty down lately, but I'm also trying to keep myself busy.

The job searching continues. I haven't had much luck with it. Mostly I deal with recruiters who never get back to me, or I get rejection emails from places I've applied. I just have to keep applying, and I am. I'm devoting a lot of my free time to just job searching. I'm also signed up for a couple of courses to enrich my skills. I just need the time to work on everything.

Being a stay at home mom does not help. Juliet is joined at my hip, needs a lot of attention, and when she's home I'm unable to get anything I want to do done. I though I could save money by taking her out of daycare, but truth be told, I had to put her back in, at least a couple days a week. I told Joe I'd find the money somewhere, even I have to sell crap on Facebook or Poshmark or do odd jobs somewhere. The days she is at daycare is so worth it for my mental health, and now I'm also trying to have her daycare days coincide when Joe has to go into the office, so then I have a day home by myself to work on my things uninterrupted. 

The other hurdle is sleeping. I haven't been sleeping well and it's affecting my mental health as well. I sleep during times when I could be doing something productive and I toss and turn at night or stay up reading manga and feeling sluggish the next day. So I need to get my sleep back on track, and I need to get my workouts back on track too. I've been really avoiding exercising lately. Thankfully, I haven't gained any weight. But still, I know if I was working out more my weight would go down so I'm upset by that. Honestly, I really wish I could start taking power walks or running again like I used to. It really helped me with my anxiety and depression and helped me feel like I was "running away" from it all, just a little bit. With Juliet, who screams and freaks out if I leave even for an hour, it puts tremendous pressure on me and I rather just not deal with it. Still, I might have to do it...

Otherwise, mostly I clean, cook, take care of the kid and dog and husband, try to pay bills, job search, do some writing, reading and try to get some sleep. We had to unclog pipe in the basement where our A/C runs off. That was a nice bill from the plumber. It was leaking on our carpet. So that sucks. We really don't have money for this kind of stuff.

Recently I had to write something for [community profile] unconventionalcourtship and it ended up being like 15K words of Modern-AU Reylo. I am happy how it turned out, but it also drained me because I was hauling ass trying to make the deadline. Next I have to work on [community profile] wipbigbang, which is due in a couple weeks. After that I'm going to work on some short stuff, or look into contests or any other freelancing stuff. I have freelancing requests in the queue so I'm definitely tackling those next.

Tomorrow Joe goes into work and Juliet has daycare, so I have a day to myself, which means job searching, follow ups, and possibly continuing my online courses. So the rest of today I plan on taking it easy, hoping to get a decent amount of sleep so tomorrow I'm refreshed enough to work on some things.

Otherwise, I'm reading a lot of manga, mostly online. I really enjoy Tsubaki-chou Lonely Planet  (May/December relationship between a writer and a poor HS student) and I was all ready to buy the English version and there isn't one, so all they have is scanlations. I've gone back and read it a couple times. Other manga I've enjoyed is Black Bird, L-DK, Blue Sky Complex, and Dame na Watashi ni Koishite Kudasi. 

I hope everyone is doing well and trudging through this year okay. I just really wish something good would happen. I really would feel a lot better if I got a new job and was able to feel more secure about the future.

Take care. 

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